Jun 29, 2008

Last Coffee


The streetlights whizzed past as I stared listlessly out of the window. Orko was driving as usual as Rohan gave him company in the front seat. Orko hated to drive sitting alone in the front row. He said that he felt like a chauffeur!

“So where are we headed?” asked Orko. I glanced at the rearview mirror which was our only way of having eye-contact while he was driving.

I shrugged, “I don’t know.”

“Let’s go somewhere to eat,” proposed Rohan popping the earphones of his i-pod from his ears. “I’m hungry.”

“You haven’t had your breakfast or lunch, have you?” I asked Rohan coldly. It was a daily routine of Rohan to skip breakfast after getting up at noon, and have second thoughts about lunch a few hours later. As a result he frequently suffered from stomach cramps.

“I woke up late and …,” Rohan started repeating his old hackneyed story.

“Yeah, and so you skipped lunch,” I finished for him with a sigh.

“I had Maggi,” Rohan tried to defend himself.

“Splendid!” Orko congratulated Rohan.

Rohan gave him a sarcastic smile.

“Ok, then let’s grab a bite,” I suggested.

“Sounds good to me,” replied Rohan. “Let’s take something from Monginis and head for…uhh…the classroom.” Rang De Basanti had really influenced us!


It wasn’t really a classroom. Actually it wasn’t even a school. It was just a college building (that’s what we had been able to make out of the building). Located behind the township in between huge fields it looked majestic. Leaning against the parked car we looked up at it, impressed. It towered over the neighbouring trees; its wide stairs seemed to beckon us to our college lives we were soon to enter; its tall walls and metal gate seemed to block out its modernism from the rustic surroundings.

“Man, it’s so…so…,” Rohan desperately tried to find an adjective.

“Awesome?” I recommended.

“Yes, exactly.”

We had been there many times but we never stopped getting amazed. As we munched away at our chicken sandwiches, a crisp wind blew from the field making the trees rustle to its tune.

“Man, it’s beautiful,” I added after a long silence taking in a deep breath.

“Yeah. I got to pee,” Orko said looking fervently around dusting his hands after finishing his sandwich.

I winced as Rohan kept on enjoying his sandwich blissfully. And Orko went on to search for the perfect place. He finally decided to do it in front of a small hut which was once a small tea-shop.


It just started to rain as we entered Café Coffee Day. Rohan surveyed the coffee house intently until he found the perfect place. Two couches by the huge glass wall which looked out at the street. Rohan and Orko sat at one couch as I sat on the opposite couch. Orko and I offered a Café Frappe each and Rohan decided to go for a Black Coffee. Actually Rohan had grown a strong distaste for Café Frappe after an unpleasant incident involving the drink and Rohan’s jeans.

The street outside glistened in the streetlights like a polished mirror as cars plied slowly. The pattering of rain was pleasing to the ear. Very few people were walking around not only because it was raining but also because it was pretty late at night. Our parents were used to us hanging around late at night. At first they had shown irritation but our common gift of persuasion had finally made them yield.

“So you are finally going to that university in Chennai?” Rohan asked sipping his hot coffee.

“I don’t know,” I shrugged. “Its counseling is coming up. Then only I can know. And what about you?”

Rohan smiled, “I thought I would stay in Kolkata. I’m not a terrorist like you.”

I laughed. Orko as usual went on to produce his famous hysterical laughter. Nearly everyone in the coffee house turned to look at us. But we were used to that. We ignored.

“Excuse me,” I called out to a waiter. “Can you give me a napkin?”

The waiter looked at me curiously for sometime before going away. After a while he came back and presented me what I asked for and said politely, “Here is your tissue paper.

I gave him a cold stare as he smiled wryly at me and left. I turned around to see Rohan and Orko smiling.

“So where have you finally decided to go?” asked Rohan this time addressing Orko.

“I told you about Canada, didn’t I? Well I finally got my passport and have decided to go there,” Orko gave a triumphant smile.

Now I know I should have been happy for Orko. But somehow I felt otherwise. Rohan just stared at him disbelievingly. He leaned back on the couch thinking of God knows what.

“Good. Good for you,” I was finally able to say.

Rohan kept quiet. Orko sensed the tension and went back to his Café Frappe straw.

After a long time, Rohan finally spoke. “Are you sure? I mean it is cold out there.”

Orko and I both laughed incredulously at the joke. Rohan also smiled, though it looked unwilling.

“No, I mean it is damn cold there. You might end up freezing your balls!”

“Come on. He has enough fat to protect him,” I chipped in.

Orko looked offended but let me go.

“And…and you’ll only get frozen fish there,” Rohan tried to protest, mockingly.

We smiled at him.

“Come on, man,” Rohan went on. “What is the only way we can keep in contact? Chatting? Chatting is so damn superficial. What I mean to say is that having coffee in person is more fulfilling than chatting. This is a totally different feeling. You know what I mean?”

“Don’t get so upset,” Orko said. “We can still call up each other.”

“Yeah, but it won’t be like it is now. We…we…you know...I…I don’t know.”

I just listened to the conversation impassively. My mind had already gone for a spin. I had it all planned out. Orko had told us that he would be trying hard to stay in Kolkata. So I had planned to come from Chennai every holiday that I got. Then we could hang out together as usual. But it wasn’t to be. Nothing seemed usual anymore.

The conversation had ended by the time my reverie was over. Rohan had composed himself. The waiter had come to the table to take away our glasses and to place the bill in its leather cover on the table. I thought for a moment of a way to reduce the tension. The tissue paper was still right in front of me. The waiter had intentionally not picked it. So I took it and placed it in the bill’s cover along with the money. This was enough to bring a grin to everyone’s faces.


“Let’s discuss the pros and cons of Orko going to Canada,” Rohan started the conversation again.

“Cut it out man,” Orko protested as he slowly maneuvered the car expertly round wet corners.

“No, no, let’s do it. I’ve already given two points.”

“And I’ve one,” I finally spoke.

Orko gave a quick glance at me, a curious smile stuck to his face.

“You are not going to come back,” I said slowly.

Orko’s smile disappeared immediately. Rohan suddenly seemed to be dead still too. Damn it, I thought. We didn’t talk for a while as the rain kept battering away at the windshield.

“But finally my dream is coming true,” I tried to lighten up the mood. “You remember the plan I made about how we could change India? Well, Orko’s going to Canada and he will return a rich man. Rohan’s going to stay in Kolkata. What better place to become a good politician? And I’m going to become a scientist. I hope. Then we can team up and change India!”

But no one smiled.

I tried again. “Okay. Orko’s going in August. So what say we go to Goa for a few days?”

Rohan gave me an impressed look and Orko finally smiled, “That would be great.” Dil Chahta Hain had really influenced us!

Jun 26, 2008

New


Starting afresh was never my wish
But I'll have to let go of everything
With one last painful kiss.

Treasuring those memories forever
Won't be easy, but I will try
To always remember.

Tunes in my head will never fade
And colours will never dull; but still
New memories will be made.

Tugging and pulling at my heart always
Will you always remain even if
You forget all those days.

I'll follow my fate and so will you
But before I start, this I promise,
I'll come back when I'm through.

I'll come back for you
And we'll start anew.
I promise.
I hope.

Jun 14, 2008

Hope

Darkness all around me;
In search of light I roam;
Stumbling and falling down;
In search of light I roam.

Light inside me flickering;
Trying to protect and shelter it;
Flying away memories;
Trying to protect and shelter it.

Cold and dying hope;
But still holding on;
Long lost sunshine;
But still holding on.

Futile banging on the wall;
Harder and harder and harder;
Blood flowing down my wrists;
Harder and harder and harder.

Broken and empty heart;
Gathering the pieces;
Groping in the dark;
Gathering the pieces.

Jun 7, 2008

My First Novel: Chapter 8

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8

For sometime we both kept quiet but she was the first to break the silence. “Isn’t it beautiful? The stars?” she asked. Her voice was amazingly sweet. “Yeah,” I replied still looking up at the sky. “What is your name? Are you new in this area?” she asked me, turning her head towards me. I looked back and replied, “My name is Jeet and I surely am new,” and extended my hand towards her with a smile. “I am Lisa,” she smiled and accepted my hand. Her hand felt warm against my cool palm.

“Well, we shifted here yesterday evening.”

“Yes, I saw your van pull up the road last evening.”

“Actually my father has been transferred here. Where do you live anyway?”

“Next door,” she said with a soft smile.

“Oh. Yeah, or else how could you have seen us? That was silly.” I smiled and gave myself a small pat at the back of my head.

“Do you come here often?” I asked.

“Well, sometimes. Like when I am in a bad mood.”

“Is your mood bad today?”

She smiled and said, “Well, I had a row with my elder brother today.”

“Your brother?”

Damien. Anyway how did you come to know about this place? This place is very far away from the town.”

“I discovered this place today, in the morning. You know, I like ‘discovering’ places.”

“So how many places have you ‘discovered’ until now,” she asked, mockingly.

“Well, if you really want to know then I should say that I have discovered…ummm…at least ten places.”

“Like?”

“Like a well in the small forest behind our old house. And all such strange places.”

She laughed softly. “Have you ‘discovered’ anything else around here?”

“No, nothing else,” I replied, with a smile, “But I would like to explore.”

“I know some interesting places around. Would you like to explore them with me?”

“Be my guide.”


Next: Chapter 9

Don't Know What To Do


As I lie on the grass looking up at the moon,
Many thoughts cross my mind,
How we met, how you used to look at me,
How I would get tongue-tied whenever I saw you,
But it has all been left behind.

Now I am alone again.

Joy and pain strike my heart at the same moment,
As I glance around and see
The place where we would sit together;
You would keep on talking and I would gaze at you;
The bench under the tree.

Only what's now left is the pain.

You have gone away and refuse to talk to me,
Why - I don't have a clue.
You have left me alone in the darkness,
I feel so helpless like I haven't felt ever before,
I don't know what to do.

There was no aim in my life,
No reason to survive,
Before I saw your eyes;
From darkness it helped me rise.
I loved you with all my heart,
Then why did you depart?
Help me rain, save me rain,
Wash away the unending pain.

Nature: Sound of Silence



Listen to the sound of silence
Creeping through the night,
Wet by the silvery light.

The moon above is shining
Ruling over the sky,
The stars twinkling by.

Listen to the words the breeze is trying to speak,
Stay quiet; it's slow and weak,
It may be the answers that you really seek,
Listen to the sound of silence.

I'm calm and collected,
My heartbeat is slowing,
Soothing emotions flowing.

The breeze striking my face
Lets down a chill,
With a touch of heal.

The night reveals the nature's beauty,
The heart wants freedom and liberty,
The soul seeks the secret of eternity,
Listen to the sound of silence.

Jun 1, 2008

My First Novel: Chapter 7

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7

At first it was fun but soon I grew tired and bored. I stood up and brushed the grass blades off my back and trousers and headed towards the moonlight-bathed tree. I sat under it resting my back against the trunk. The moonlight was filtering through the leaves above and small round fragments of moonlight fell on the ground beneath. I looked at the milky patches on the ground for sometime absent-mindedly.

Then I looked up towards the sky and took up the impossible task of counting the stars. When I just finished counting eighty-three stars I heard a distant noise - somewhat like the sound of bicycle wheels on the grass. I turned my eyes from the sky to my fore. I saw nothing, only the intensity of the sound increased. Then the bicycle and the rider came in view. At first I was not able to distinguish the face of the rider with the darkish sky in the background. But as the cycle came nearer I was able to recognize the cyclist as a girl who seemed to be of my own age.

She drove to the middle of the hill. She got down from the cycle and put down the stand and rested the blue bike on it. She began walking up to the tree under which I was sitting.

She was wearing a white top and a blue skirt, which was flapping a little. As she neared, her face became slowly and slowly clear. Suddenly she noticed me and stopped dead on her tracks. I was also taken aback by her sudden reaction and sat there, unable to move.

The moonlight illuminated her face. She was fair, just like the moon above. Her straight, shoulder-long, brown hair was dancing on her shoulder to the light, cool summer breeze and unveiled her ears a little, which were adorned by a pair of tiny sparkling earrings. Her lips dropped open a little but were pulled up immediately. Her deep blue eyes were fixed at my black eyes. I had a feeling of drowning in her eyes. I was unable to move my eyes away from hers. She had an enchanting stare! She kept looking at me. And I at her.

The twinkling stars behind her, above us, behind me and all around blinked at us and wondered at the sudden silence of the surroundings. It seemed as if the water had controlled itself from falling over the precipice; the river had suddenly stopped running and was standing still. It seemed as if the stars, the moon, the waterfall, the river, the valley, the hills, the mountains, the grass; everything around us was looking at us, at our silence, in astonishment. The world seemed to have stopped. And we, the only two living things on earth, had been made motionless by some ancient, incurable, eternal charm!

The breeze was the first to recover from nature’s sudden amazement; it blew her hair over her face, covering her eyes, ripping the strange ‘eye-bond’ apart. That is when the waterfall again lost balance and fell off the cliff; the river again began to run, tumbling on itself again and again. The world was back to normal; the magic was broken.

She brushed her hair off her face and then resumed walking towards me, though at a slower speed, and sat down beside me resting against the trunk. She kept quiet and looked up at the sky. I also resumed counting the stars (I had to start all over again).


Next: Chapter 8